Is this Real Life? Ok NOW?

15 Jun

Do you ever have one of those days that no matter how hard you try to focus, your brain says “NO WAY”?

Well that would be me today. I’ve done everything but work today. In fact I read all 178 pages of Stephanie Myers short book “The Second Short Life of Bree Tanner” before lunch. Which by the way was very good and a quick easy read. It’s free to read online and I recommend checking it out: http://ld-breetannerbook.libredigital.com/index.html

My mind is everywhere today. With Father’s Day approaching this weekend I can’t help but wonder, will this be the last Father’s Day that my husband will NOT be a father? We are really hoping to have some success this month now that we are officially 1 year and 1 month of trying to have a baby. Each month it seems like someone else is knocked up from just looking at each other and we are left here swimming in Ovulation predictor tests, cycle charting and doctors appointments.

Sigh… there I go edging on the brink of cynicism. Knock that off Midgey.

Anyone else out there had or having trouble trying to have a baby? If your out there I’d love to talk, sometimes I feel so alone in that department.  I do have faith in God that he will bless us with a child when the time is right, but can the “time is right” be right now? Is that to hard to ask?

Day 2 of weight watchers online has been going well. I’m looking forward to my first official McFatty Monday weight in next week. 4 lbs is the goal.. Will I be able to do it? I sure as hell hope so.

Midgey

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2 Responses to “Is this Real Life? Ok NOW?”

  1. Secrets Kept June 16, 2010 at 2:00 am #

    aww, well you’re just going to have to become rabbits! Good luck!

  2. thequeenashley June 16, 2010 at 3:54 am #

    We aren’t “trying” to have kids right now but we aren’t not trying- as in no birth control or prevention and I have had to 2 miscarriages. Since we aren’t activly trying I don’t know exactly how you feel but the fact that it hasn’t even happened again on accident worries me a lot. Idk if you have ever heard of this but both times I got preggo I put my feet and legs in the air like up against a wall and it worked both times .. Worth a try and it’s funny.

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